This past week has been a hefty one. And now its time to get back to normal, or whatever passes for normal, at the moment. I feel that for the past couple of days, what I’ve been trying to do is play catch-up. I haven’t succeeded all that well. Yet, I’ve also gained in some areas.
For instance, one of the prompts I responded to was a new and different poetic form. Actually two very distinct forms of poetry together. It felt a bit like attempting a foreign language, without the advantage of a translation dictionary. Trying to learn by ear, sort of speak. My first attempts didn’t do much but muddy the waters, and I finally gave up altogether. Just wrote the poem that was circling in my brain.
Posted it and then went to look at what the other writers had done. By the time I hit the fourth response, I could hear the poem building in my head. So, I wrote it. And that felt good. I’m fairly certain that what I ended up with was not a great example of the new form, but it felt good just getting close to that. And in the attempt, learning something new and something I will definitely attempt to do again.
Trying something new is difficult. Moving outside ones comfort zone always is, but if we are to continue to grow, we must occasionally push ourselves to do so. I felt that doing the first poem, in the more familiar mode, somehow opened a door, one that allowed me to find the second piece. It allowed me to relax and see what was right there in front of me as I looked at those first few responses and at least find some understanding in what was being asked of me.
The most important aspect in all of this was that once I actually finished that attempt, I found a whole new perspective to my own story. Much as learning a new language gives one a wider range of vocabulary, doing the new form gave me a wider ranging view of what had been tangling me up for months. One I obviously needed.
That is not to say I wouldn’t have stumbled into that wider view in some other fashion. I very well could have. But, I have no idea how long that might have taken me. For right now, I’m just grateful I tried the new form and found exactly what I needed in this moment.
Perhaps opening the window to that new way of speaking, brought with it some badly needed fresh air. Made new connections in old material, thus changing the whole, or at least a good chunk of it. And in that process brought an element of peace that had been sorely missing. Not a bad result for a first try.
What may be more important in all of this, is the desire to continue to open more windows. I have been doing this blog for over two years, since August of 2008. My intent, when I started it, was to simply utilize the knowledge I had gained by keeping a personal journal for twenty years and encouraging others in that pursuit. That is what I did before I was retired on disability.
Many, if not most of the essays you will find here, concern themselves with that topic. What I now have in mind is something a bit new and different. I know that some who come here, actually keep a journal. There are many who do not. I would like to propose that on one day a week, I actually offer journal writing prompts. Things that will actually get individuals on the page and hopefully keep them there.
This is not public writing. It is a personal ongoing dialogue with oneself. And I have lots of ideas on how to maintain just such a dialogue. But for right now, I’d be interested in knowing if there would be any interest in such an endeavor.
No one would be asked to reveal any of that personal writing, but we could surely discuss the issues and problems that definitely arise during that process. That doesn’t mean you can’t share if you choose to do so, that choice should always remain in your own hands. You would share it on your own blog and simply leave a URL for us to locate whatever you choose to share.
Here’s the question: Are you interested in doing this? Using the weekly prompts I would offer and then coming back here to discuss how it went and if you had problems responding to the prompt? This is definitely a path of self-exploration, but it would also entail supporting one another while doing so. I’d really like to know if there would be some amount of interest in doing such a thing. So please let me know in the comments section below. And definitely leave questions if you have them. Thanks.