About Elizabeth

My name is Elizabeth and I grew up in the lower, North Eastern part of Wisconsin. However, I married, moved to South Eastern Wisconsin, raised four children, graduated college after a divorce, became a Free-Lance Writing Instructor, was pronounced disabled, and moved back to the city of my birth. And those two environments are worlds, as well as miles apart.

For instance: I grew up being called Betty, but after moving away, as an adult, I took possesion of my legal and baptismal name, Elizabeth. I’m into definitions and those two names reside within me and are also worlds apart. Elizabeth literally means “God is my oath” ( a name one could grow into forever), while Betty, often wrongly defined as a derivative of Elizabeth, has no literal meaning whatsoever. Who would ever want to be defined as ‘zilch?’ Its been hard work to get them to compromise, but I’m more happy with the outcome than not.

I lived in SEW for almost forty years, still introduce myself as Elizabeth, but most often get called Betty, sometimes not responding with anything but a blank expression. Friends and family who come to visit risk whiplash trying to figure out who Betty is, while other relatives here, insist that I have always been Betty and that is that. And in a very real sense, I am and will always be both.

Elizabeth is the college graduate who loves to sling words (Have word, Will travel), loves to teach others how to do the same, is intimidated by large social gatherings, loves to engage in deep and profound discussions about almost anything, but prefers the subject of the inherent value of all life, and the need to constantly seek its purpose, is published in both prose and poetry, loves slow rides to nowhere, is intense about relationships, music, the written word, some movies, and can prove that the personal is political and its opposite.

Betty, a definite North Wisconsin hill-billy who lives beneath the roots of all of that, hates being told she has to do anything (actually going immediately into rebel mode at the mere suggestion), loves to sing any song that pops into her mind, emphatically confronts the issue of abuse when it crosses her path, loves to go fishing, and laughs deep down from the belly (having been told frequently that she has a particularly almost evil chortle), doesn’t know how to accept a compliment gracefully, sometimes feels wholy inadequate, but continues to blunder her way through a life she defines as mostly accidental.

Combined together they are, for the most part, often polite, but forever retain the right to become, when necessary, a force to be reckoned with.

6 Responses to “About Elizabeth”

  1. Anonymous Says:

    remarkable so far. email me

  2. 1sojournal Says:

    Did just that not more than a minute ago. Told you there was a lot here. You’ll be reading for days. Hope you take something else away besides eye strain, lol.

    Elizabeth

  3. Heather Says:

    Elizabeth (for you are most certainly that to me!) – I feel like I already know you!
    :)

    Heather

  4. 1sojournal Says:

    Heather,

    am glad you feel that way. I get teased a bit about having a split personality. I just tell people that whether they get Betty or Elizabeth, they simply get a bigger, better version of both, lol. I still respond to Elizabeth far more readily than Betty, but being back here has certainly encouraged that part of me to come forward again, and I’m pleased by all of it. Betty has a great deal to do with the Wild Things inside of me, thus my creative energies. Couldn’t live without her.

    Elizabeth

  5. madison Says:

    i think you’re brilliant.

  6. 1sojournal Says:

    Hmm, brilliant? Not a word I would easily apply to a North Wisconsin Hillbilly in jeans and a t-shirt, with a hankering to go fishing but, I’ll take it, smile sweetly, gracefully bow (at least mentally, physically might be a disaster), find a quiet corner and hug myself. Thank you Madison, you are exactly what I needed this morning. Hope you come back and we can chat, or at least get to know one another,

    Elizabeth

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